Holidays can be quite boring.

Watch New Moon today with Med & Noella.
Nice effects. Sad love story.
Blogging about my Japan Trip in the next post (:
Adios.

Almost at 'The End'

I'm craving for ice-cream right now as I type out this entry!

A levels is officially ending tomorrow.
It just spells one word A-W-E-S-O-M-E.
I've done what I've done.
Results will be out in March 2010. I don't even dare to think about that.
Have no idea how I'll fare.
My life in PJ have been filled with too much stuff.
Sometimes it's just too much to take it on all at once.
You will only understand if you're me, otherwise don't bother (:
Will be on holiday with my family and won't be back till Dec.
So till then folks~
My blog has been revived :D

Oh yeah, I caught two movies lately.
My girlfriend is an agent rocks! 2012 is realistically scary, not the movie for me.

P/S: All I want for Christmas is you.

Lazy's the word. Period.

Hey guys!
It's been a really long while since I last blogged.
Maybe lazy's really the word.
My life's been full of ups and downs for the past few months.
And I guess it'll stay that way. Ha.
It's approximately 42 days to my A levels and my prelims just ended on friday (25/9).
Not sure if I'm ready and stuff but oh well just get it over and done with!
Won't be blogging that much till my As are over, so for the time being you guys can follow me on twitter:

http://twitter.com/wennyan


Alright Adios Amigos! :D

Agony

Argh.
What the hell is wrong with everything?
Please come back and be with us, don't stay there anymore :(

The Story of an Apple & a Pear..

The Story of an Apple & a Pear; unfinished.

Out of the millions of different fruits in that basket, in that supermarket, this particular Apple and Pear had the chance to meet. What do you think was "it" that brought these two fruits together? Fate. And everything felt like child-like innocence. The "Hi-Bye(s)", followed by the subsequent meet ups and the never ending conversations, and the whole fruitship turned into something warm and sweet. And out pops pessimistic Banana who said "You'll regret this, I know you will". Hoping that everything was there to last? Think again. It ended even before they got a chance to continue where it started from. Why? It's all the act of fate again. How right Banana was indeed. Was Banana really pessimistic? Or did Banana already knew right from the start that it was never meant to be? No one knows. Or was it just the way life is, there's always a beginning and closure in it.
And indeed, Apple got picked up by a shopper in the Supermarket and that was the last time Pear saw Apple. Everything for them has reached a pit stop and they(it) won't ever get out of that pit stop. Apple found its chance to start all over; in search of another "Pear" or rather an "Apple".

When things were never meant to be, it should never have began right from the start.
And it just turns out to be regrets, hurt and more pain.

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I asked a friend recently,
Do you sometimes hate yourself for the care & concern you give unconditionally for close ones around you? That bit of care or concern, you can call it love, all meant well with no expectations attached but is it not painful to not get any reciprocacy?

And she said:
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered and
it keeeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes and always perseveres.

And I thought,
You make the decision to love or not to love and for whom you should love.
It's unconditional, it's complicated and it requires time for understanding but deep down you know it will never be understood. To not expect and to continue to love the close ones around you, no matter how much pain it brings, love will offset everything else.
To know how to love from the bottom of the heart in this world filled with contradictions.
It takes so much to love and even more to hate.
Don't envy, just love unconditionally(minus the pain).

I'm sorry, I know that I'm moving in circles.
And I don't need you to move together with me cos' it wouldn't be fair.
And once again, I'm all alone to fend for me, myself and I.
I hate going back to square one.
Time, give me another chance.

EXPECT nothing.

Happy Birthday Daddy! :D

Anyway, I know who cares for me and who don't :D
So why bother right if people don't care? :D
Weee~ Nonchalant!
Go study for cse test already.
So long~

I'm wishing & still wishing.

Study, study, study.
101 days more to go!
You can do it wen yan :D
I miss gym sessions :(
I can't find time for it at all & this isn't an excuse alright!
If time could be bought, I'm willing to sacrifice my weekly allowance for the extra time :(
See, that's how desperate I am!


I know I'm not over it.
I know myself really well.I'm just trying to hide it.
I'm just trying to focus on what's at hand, so stay nonchalant wen yan (:
But I can't help but hate it that you're feeling all that for her.
It's not dislike but pure hate.
And I'm leaving it at that.
In fact, I think I should just not care about anything.

Durian puffs!

Yayy! Someone gave Mummy 12 Durian Puffs from Goodwood Park Hotel!
It's damn nice! :D

I can't believe that my cough is still not going away. Roar.

Must learn to pick yourself up from where you fell (:

Go away cough.

Crazy cough.
Woke up in the morning with no energy.
Lie back in bed.
Sleep, eat medicine, sleep again.
That's my day -o-

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明知山有虎，偏向虎山行.
Don't do this anymore wy.
Know what's best for you and focus on what's in front of you!
Don't hurt yourself anymore.

There are a lot of people who care about me & that's more than enough (:
Sometimes if you think that someone doesn't care about you, you're wrong.
The person cares but it's just not the way you wanted them to.
I love my Mummy & Daddy :D

:( --> T.T

Stay Nonchalant, don't care don't care!
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Stay Nonchalant, don't care don't care!

Sometimes, the brain just got to teach the heart.

Four precious days.

4 Days of holiday huh?
Been making use of it :D

Sunday (5/7)
Went out with Lala after tuition to catch Transformers.
Yes again, after watching it with Pei Rong and Joanne the other time. Roar.

Monday (6/7)
Slack Day but went to gym for like 2 hours :D
Took away all the stress.
Feel like taking up kick boxing lessons.
So that I can KICK and BOX those anger/sadness/frustrations away!
Roar.
Then again, I can't find time.
Or is this just an excuse? -o-

Tuesday (7/7)
Had breakfast with Jas :D
Then, had Teppanyaki & movie time over at Joanne's house together with Pei Rong + Med.
Great time spent together!

Wednesday (8/7)
Gym and after brought lil' Bro to watch TRANSFORMERS with Jas!
Yes AGAIN, I can't believe I watched that show three freaking times -.-
Oh well, I think I can memorise the whole plot now.
(I had to say this so that I'll feel better).
How much cash I spent just on one movie man! $_$

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Had a Badminton session with Jas today!
Ate lunch at BBQ Chicken place where lunch was $7.90 nett for students regardless of what you ordered!
Tell me this ain't awesome and I'll just smack you :P
Went over to Jas's house to make Milo Agar Agar cos' she's gonna give her Boss some!
What a boot licker huh? :x
Not sure if it was a total success though .__.
Oh man, school's starting tmr.


Am I really over sensitive?
Or is it that I just can't stand the fact that things are working out this way now?
I'm not sure. I only know that this so isn't me.
Getting so upset and hurt easily, this isn't me.
I'm not like that.
Where did the happy, full of smiles, optimistic and confident wen yan went to?
I want her back. I'm still finding.
Oh please, help me with this.
I don't think I can do it alone.

You were like..

the Soulmate;
You were around me most of the time, life wouldn't be the same without you.

the Bestfriend;
I was never so close to anyone before & you were different it felt like I could talk to you about anything and everything, without feeling like a big burden. You showed me what it was like to have a bestfriend again when I stopped believing in bestfriends.

the Partner;
where everything could be done with you without worrying if you wouldn't like the idea of doing things and etc.

the Sunshine;
You helped me out during the rainy days and picked me up when thunder storms came.

The feeling of love; it was like you're in Utopia.
But it's all history now.
It's all Past Tense.

Pure White Bengal Tiger!

I came across this article online about the birth of a pure white Bengal tiger!
It's a beautiful tiger huh?
Fareeda's only six month old and is the first ever cub to be born without strips in Africa!
Talk about being unique!

Fareeda is a snow white tiger cub who only has stripe markings on her tail.

The special bengal cub (center) was born in a litter of three but keepers had to wait for six months to see if stripes would develop.

It's quite late, time for me to hit the bed! :D

Source: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-1197823/Pure-white-Bengal-tiger-born-stripes.html

Loneliness can't escape the globalised world.

I read an article yesterday written by Bhagyashree Garekar: Too many lonely people in the world
How true indeed.
People are actually much lonelier than they think they are.
Even for myself, sometimes I find that I can't actually find a person whom I can talk to comfortably.
Or someone to entrust those secrets or someone whom you can talk to about the ordeals you have been going through
I guess it's really difficult to find good listeners these days.
Some listen cos they feel obliged to as your friend, some listen because they just want to poke their noses into your life and after that start mass sending everything they know about you to the whole world, till they're satisfied.
And there are some, who would sit there quietly and listen genuinely with their hearts to what you have to say.
At times, the great listeners out there might not even be your good friend or buddy! (And I'm not refering to a counsellor or a psychologist!)
People have an account on Facebook, Friendster, Myspace and etc; all the different social networks that you can find online, claiming to make more friends, extend one's social circle.
But seriously, does it?
Famous stars from around the world have a Facebook account but they still feel as lonely as ever.
It does allow you to connect with people from the rest of the world but I don't think it's that good at nurturing friendships when people only speak to each other online cos' there is still this distance between the two person.
Sometimes I wonder why I keep that account I have in Facebook/Friendster.
People create meaningless quiz to rate a person's IQ, a person's career and etc.
Causes for groups are also created online to support animal rights etc.
Or to "Join a group" to become a fan of Mcdonalds, Starbucks etc.
Isn't this just another form of advertising for their own companies?
All these make it seem like we're living in another world apart from the one we're living in right now.
And very soon everyone in the world will only know how to connect with others through that square box that they own at home or at work.
After all it conveniences everyone and in time everyone might lose the skill of socialising; where people sit down and realise that they have nothing to say because they don't have the luxury of replying as and when they feel like it, like how we do on MSN.
Awkward moments to come.
Globalised world huh?

It's overrr!

The Mid-Year Exams are finally over.
I don't think it's an agony studying for it, it's more of an agony sitting for the various papers.
I'm not sure how well I can rate the papers though.
Overall, I think all the papers I sat for are quite tough.
Yet another disappointment for Mum, Dad and myself.
I really got to work that extra mile.
Jia you wen yan! :D
On a lighter note, I have no school next week from Monday to Thurs :D
This is the best thing that that can ever happen! :D
Monday's Youth day! :D

I wanted a simple layout so here it is, I know it looks a bit boring BUT I don't care I like it :D
After all, it's the most simplest things in life that makes people happy.
I think my blog looks really cool now!
Plain, simple and the words go easy on the eyes when I read! :D